disease

sick as a dog.
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck.
watching a dad and daughter on tv and the daughter is being so fake with him.
i can't stop coughing.
i have to start moving tomorrow.
nothing is packed.
i don't have any food at the house and i can't move.
fuck being sick, man.
fuck it all.

into inside into outside

Watched Mister Lonely. So good. Made me feel pretty good about things in general.
Got me feeling like I need to embrace the lost more. I don't know about anything right now in my life. And that's okay. That's all.




On Fridays I work at the school. Leon and his two brothers didn't get to do any activites because they're bad. They just have a lot of energy. And can't handle authority. Is that okay? I don't know. Doesn't really bother me.


Then we walked to see the barn and I knew it would be the last time I ever saw it. I just felt it. I'm not angry or sad really. I'm just happy I know something like that exists. We walked to the diner after we saw the barn. I liked this old empty car lot on the way. Check out that glitter. The sky was beautiful and the wind was whipping so hard.

Just a Moment

Had a fucked up dream last night. I beat a girl up cause I was jealous or something and some 12-year old told me I needed to let it go in the snow. I was calm, then. But it was my house. It all happened in my house. So fucked up. Yeah, I'm not over it. I guess. Fuck it.
It's my birthday. I don't mind.

1-By the train tracks, on a ledge. It was sunny. I felt nice.
2-One of the four cats I see everyday on my walk to work. I'll post the rest some other day.

this is for ben

what i saw while i wasn't working today

other places

I want this to be as big as your face and wrap around your whole head.

somebody else's belief in ghosts

after this person took these, they became a believer.